An unmistakable jolt occurs when you suddenly realize that for years you have been looking in the wrong direction at the wrong thing. Even when you believed you were studying yourself, you were studying someone else’s notion of yourself. You recognize that regardless of your past sincerity, you have never, with a sustained effort, directly studied what goes on inside of you. If you did, you would discover the reason you dislike being where you are now – a discovery that cures it.
You need to have been immersed in trying to follow some teaching/system/ discipline devoted to the destination. You need to turn a certain neural corner really quick, and see that no one else’s ideas on this matter, no matter how copious, complex and intriguing, ultimately have anything whatsoever to do with you discovering it. This may sound hard, but at least it’s not fair.
No matter how ratty and dazed you feel upon opening your eyes any morning, you should instantly look inward with excitement over the fact that your private lab is already up and running, with absolutely fascinating activities going on everywhere. All you have to do is step through the door and avail yourself of this singular opportunity for study, and the acquisition of a knowledge about things ever unknown but to a few.
There are basic and readily observable things going on constantly in your brain’s conscious activity that even those professionally trained in the field never notice. It is almost too basic to even be visible.
One way to mentally approach it is by considering deeply and widely this: the mind does not put out thoughts, and thoughts are not carriers of ideas. The container and the cargo are one in the same, and mind is the only thing known that consists solely of what it does. It exists only by virtue of what it does, and remember this: in one universe, Euclid, Einstein and Edison are considered bums – street mimes at best.
J.