Could Having the Intelligence of a Cell Be the Same as Being ‘Awake?’
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COPYRIGHT 1999 JAN COX
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THE FOLLOWING ARE EXCERPTS FROM WHAT APPEARS TO BE THE PERSONAL DIARY OF SOME ONE WITH /INTERESTS- SIMILAR TO OURS. HIS IDENTITY AND TEMPORAL SETTING IS NOT KNOWN, AND THERE IS NO PROOF WHETHER IT BE REAL OR FICTIONAL,
OCTOBER 18TH:
“TODAY A COMMONLY UTTERED PHRASE STRUCK ME FOR THE FIRST TIME IN THAT PRIVATE MANNER I RECOGNIZE AS NOT BEING ITS COMMON INTERPRETATION: THE PHRASE:
‘LOST IN THOUGHT’
IT JUST SUDDENLY HIT ME AS BEING A BETTER DESCRIPTION OF THAT MENTAL STATE OF SUCH INTEREST TO ME WHICH I HAVE LONG BEEN IN THE HABIT OF REFERRING TO AS: ‘BEING ASLEEP’,
BUT,,LOST IN THOUGHT’ IS ACTUALLY MORE DIRECT AND DESCRIPTIVE.
HAVING THIS EXPERIENCE, (WHICH OCCURS EVER MORE FREQUENTLY) MAKES ME AWARE OF HOW LITTLE I KNOW AND UNDERSTAND ABOUT
WHAT IT IS THAT I PERSONALLY SO DISLIKE ABOUT MY ORDINARY MENTAL CONDITION,
AFTER FORTY ODD YEARS INVOLVED IN THIS ACTIVITY I HAVE COME TO CALL: ‘THE STRUGGLE TO AWAKEN’,
YOU WOULD THINK THAT I WOULD KNOW QUITE CLEARLY WHAT IT IS ABOUT THE CONDITION OF ‘BEING ASLEEP’ THAT SO BOTHERS ME THAT I HAVE DEVOTED
SUCH A LARGE PART OF MY LIFE TO CHANGING
…AND YET IF I SAY THAT I DO FIRMLY KNOW AND TOTALLY UNDERSTAND
WHAT “BEING ASLEEP” IS AND WHY I DO NOT LIKE IT,
WHILE THE MAJORITY OF MANKIND IN A SIMILAR CONDITION
SEEM TO TAKE NO PARTICULAR NOTICE OF IT,
IF I SAY THAT I DO UNDERSTAND WHAT ME “BEING ASLEEP” IS,
BUT THEN SINCERELY EXAMINE THAT CLAIM,
I REALIZE IT IS HOLLOW,
AND SURELY FOR THIS REASON, (AT LEAST IN PART),
I CONTINUE TO BE ON THE LOOK OUT FOR NEW WAYS OF DESCRIBING THE CONDITION
SO AS TO ARRIVE AT A MORE PERFECT MODEL OF WHAT CONSCIOUSNESS IS
SO AS TO BETTER BE ABLE TO IDENTIFY THAT PARTICULAR ASPECT OF ITS OPERATION
THAT I USUALLY CALL, “BEING ASLEEP”, BUT WHICH TERM IS LESS THAN ENLIGHTENING.
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THUS I SIT HERE NOW, PEN IN HAND, REFLECTING ON. THE PHRASE,”LOST IN THOUGHT”, AND HAVE A NEW VERBAL PICTURE OF THE AFFAIR:
I SEE THERE BEING TWO POSSIBLE STATES FOR ME:
I AM EITHER: “LOST IN THINKING”,
OR ELSE IN A STATE OF “BEING ME”/ (AND”MORE SPECIFICALLY),
IN A STATE OF FEELING MYSELF TO BE A “ME” WHO THOROUGHLY DISLIKES BEING,
“LOST IN THINKING”.
NOT ONLY HAS THIS NEW VERBAL STRUCTURE STRUCK ME. AS USEFUL. TO MY PURPOSES,
IT ALSO SERVES TO REMIND ME OF THE AWESOME INTERNAL, INVISIBLE DIVIDE BETWEEN
ME AND ORDINARY MEN IN THAT THEY EMPLOY THE IMAGE ROUTINELY. REGARDING.
SOME ONE BEING, “LOST IN THOUGHT”, AND BELIEVE THAT WHAT THEY INTEND BY
THE WORDS/
FULLY COVERS THE REALITY OF THE MATTER/
WHEREAS TO ME,
ITS UNRECOGNIZED REALITY HAS PROFOUNDLY REVEALING. IMPLICATIONS
FAR BEYOND THEIR INTERPRETATION OF THE PHRASE.
SO ONCE AGAIN I SEE THE PHYSICAL, CELLULAR ACTIVITY OF MENS’ BRAINS.THAT
PRODUCES ALL OF THEIR THINKING,
SPEAKING OF ITS_OWN ACTIVITY IN A WAY THAT,
SURELY AT. IS LEVEL WOULD BE CONSIDERED, “SELF REFLECTIVE”,
BUT WHEN THE VERBALIZATION OF THEIR SELF REFLECTION REACHES MENS’ TONGUES,
THE HUMANS GIVING VOICE TO THE CELLS SELF-REFLECTION
SEEM ONLY_SUPERFICIALLY AWARE OF ITS..SIGNIFICANCE.,
AND OBLIVIOUS TO ITS STUNNING IMPLICATIONS.
THEY WILL BLITHELY PASS OFF A MOMENTARILY NOTICED STATE OF THEIR
CONSCIOUSNESS BY SAYING: “AM/ WELL, I GUESS I WAS JUST: ‘LOST IN THOUGHT’.”, AND THEN GO ON WITH NO FURTHER CONSIDERATION OF WHAT HAS JUST OCCURRED,
AND IN FACT WITH NO NOTICE THAT SUCH A CONDITION REPEATS. ITSELF IN THEIR BRAIN, OVER AND OVER AGAIN THROUGHOUT THEIR LIFE,
…AND THEN I — I HEAR THE SAME PHRASE AND AM SUDDENLY DUMBSTRUCK BY IT.
THERE IS NO NEED FOR ME TO RESORT TO THE CLASSIC MYSTICAL TERM OF ME, “BEING ASLEEP”,
ALL I NEED. SAY ABOUT ME AND THAT STATE IS:”I AM LOST IN THINKING”: WHATEVER “ME” THERE CAN BE, IT DOES NOT_EXIST WHEN I AM: “LOST IN THINKING”, AND THAT IS THE CONDITION, PUT PLAINLY, THE DISSATISFACTION WITH WHICH, HAS SO CONSUMED MUCH OF MY LIFE’S ENERGY.
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I GUESS AS IS ALWAYS THE CASE,
MY NEW PERSONAL INTERPRETATION OF BEING: “LOST IN THINKING”
IS JUST ANOTHER MATTER OF THE RIGHT, OR, INEVITABLE THING HAPPENING AT THE RIGHT, OR INEVITABLE TIME..– (THAT IS OF COURSE, FOR ME.)
THE VERBAL FRAMEWORK. DOES. SEEM SO “RIGHT” TO ME:
I AM EITHER IN A STATE OF BEING: “LOST IN THINKING”, OR IN A STATE OF: “BEING ME”,
AND A “ME” THAT DISLIKES ME_BEING: !LOST IN THINKING”
…BUT SOMETHING ELSE SUDDENLY CATCHES MY ATTENTION:
WHEN I AM IN THE STATE OF:BEING’ME”,
I THINK CONSTANTLY ABOUT THE STATE OF BEING: “LOST IN THINKING”,
BUT WHEN I AM IN THE STATE OF BEING: “LOST IN THINKING”
MY THINKING NEVER THINKS ABOUT ME !! —
— FOR IF IT DOES,
THEN THAT STATE INSTANTLY DISAPPEARS AND IS IMMEDIATELY REPLACED BY
THE STATE OF ME: “BEING ME”.
FOR THE STATE OF: “ME.BEING LOST IN THINKING” TO THINK ABOUT”ME”IS SUICIDAL FOR THAT STATE. CEASES TO BE AS SOON AS IT HAS SUCH THOUGHTS,
YET WHEN I AM IN THE STATE OF ME “BEING ME” AND I THINK ABOUT THE STATE OF: “ME BEING LOST IN THINKING”,
IT DOES NOT DRIVE ME OUT OF EXISTENCE.
BESIDES THIS: WHAT MORE DOES A MAN HAVE TO KNOW OF A SO-CALLED,
“MYSTICAL NATURE”?!
..DOES THIS ALONE NOT REVEAL THE ACTUAL WORKINGS BEHIND THE ANCIENT,_ AND SELDOM SCRUTINIZED NOTION THAT MAN IS SOME HOW “ASLEEP” DURING THE DAY TIME, IN SOME POTENTIALLY SIGNIFICANT MANNER?!
IT’S ALL RIGHT THERE, OBVIOUS AND OUT IN THE OPEN,
RIGHT INSIDE OUR OWN MIND:
THERE’S BUT TWO POSSIBILITIES: I AM EITHER BEING: “ME”, OR ELSE I AM: “LOST IN THINKING”, AND EVERY TRICK, METHOD, DISCIPLINE OR APPROACH THAT SO-CALLED MYSTICS HAVE COME UP WITH ARE UNRECOGNIZED REACTIONS TO THIS SITUATION IN OUR BRAINS.
YES, SITTING HERE AS I WRITE. THIS: IT IS OH-SO-PLAIN-AND-OBVIOUS TO ME, …BUT NO MATTER WHAT NEW PERSONAL DISCOVERY OR. TRICK I COME UP WITH. TO HELP KEEP ME IN THE STATE OF: “ME BEING ME”, IT IS OH-SO-QUICKLY ABSORBED, OVERWHELMED, TAKEN-IN-BY THE STATE OF: “ME BEING LOST IN THINKING.
“ME BEING ME” SEEMS TO BE NO MATCH FOR THE POWER OF THE STATE OF:
“ME BEING LOST IN. THINKING” BUT WHICH IS TRULY CURIOUS — IN THAT: (CONTINUES BELOW)
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“ME” IS A PRODUCT OF MY “THINKING”, SO HOW DOES IT COME THAT I PERSONALLY SEE THERE BEING A CONFLICT BETWEEN: “ME”, AND. THAT STATE. OF ”THINKING” THE OBJECT OF MY IRE?!
FOR WHAT POSSIBLE PURPOSE DO THE CELLS IN MY CORTEX THAT PRODUCE:MY THOUGHTS,
PRODUCE. SOME IN ME;–
WHICH SEEM TO ME —
TO BE INIMICAL TO THEIR.OWN EXISTENCE,
(OR AT LEAST TO THE MOST COMMON FORM OF THEIR EXISTENCE)?!
AS I SPEAK OF THE APPARENT SUPERIOR POWER OF THE “LOST IN THINKING” STATE
OVER THE “ME” STATE,
I AM MOVED TO PONDER FURTHER THEREON:
ARE THERE POSSIBLE EXPLANATIONS FOR THIS SITUATION THAT I MIGHT VERBALIZE
BASED ON MY OWN EXPERIENCES AND OBSERVATIONS?:
DOES THE STATE OF ME_BEING: “LOST IN THINKING” SEEM MORE POWERFUL THAN
THE STATE OF ME: “BEING ME”
FOR THE SIMPLE REASON THAT I ENJOY THE FORMER OVER THE LATTER?! —
MIGHT I ACTUALLY ENJOY BEING: “LOST IN THINKING” MORE THAN I ENJOY: “BEING ME”?!
…IS IT SIMPLY NATURAL FOR THE THINKING IN ME AND ALL MEN,
TO OVER-POWER THE “ME” IN ME?!,
AND WOULD THUS BE UN-NATURAL WERE IT THE REVERSE?!,
AND THE PRESENCE OF “ME” IN ME TO TAKE PREFERENCE OVER THE THINKING?!
IS THE “THINKING” IN ME REALLY MORE INTERESTING THAN THE “ME” THAT IS IN ME?! …AFTER ALL, THE THINKING IS ETERNALLY ACTIVE AND ALWAYS MOVING,
WHILE THE “ME”,IN COMPARISON, IS STODGY AND STATIC,
(AND IN TRUTH, CAN QUICKLY BECOME RATHER BORING).
…IS THIS WHY I SO READILY SLIP FROM BEING IN THE STATE OF “ME”
INTO THE STATE OF BEING: “LOST IN THINKING” BEFORE I CAN EVEN DREAM OF
STOPPING IS IT SIMPLY BECAUSE:
NOT MATTER WHAT I SAY_ TO THE CONTRARY WHEN I AM IN THE STATE OF BEING “ME”, I ACTUALLY FIND BEING: “LOST IN THINKING” TO BE MORE INTERESTING & EXCITING TO.ME THAN
BEING ME.
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I CANNOT TRULY SAY TO MYSELF (WITH A STRAIGHT FACE), THAT I DO NOT SOME HOW,
“ENJOY” MYSELF WHEN I AM “LOST IN THINKING”:
YES’, I AM AWARE THAT I SAY. I DON’L
WHEN I AM IN THE STATE OF “BEING ME”,
AND I AM FAMILIAR WITH A FEELING I HAVE AT THOSE TIMES
WHICH SEEMS TO GIVE VALIDITY TO MY EXPRESSION AND YET:
I REALLY CANNOT SAY,
WITH ABSOLUTE CONVICTION,
WITH TOTAL CERTAINTY
THAT–
SOME HOW,
DEEP DOWN,
BEYOND THE GRASP OF MERE VERBAL ASSERTIONS
THAT I. DO NOT — “ENJOY MYSELF”WHEN I AM:”LOST IN THINKING”.
AS I SIT AND LOOK ON..THESE WORDS I HAVE JUST WRIT,
IT DOES STRIKE ME AS STRANGE THAT I COULD DO SO WITHOUT BEING TERRIFYINGLY UPSET AND SHOCKED AT THEIR POSSIBLE VALIDITY.
…I AM THUS SUDDENLY FACED WITH THE FURTHER POSSIBILITY THAT: “BEING AWAKE”, (IN DOSES TOO LARGE),
COULD BE BORING AND ULTIMATELY UNAPPETIZING.
AND AGAIN, I AM SURPRISED THAT I AM NOT MORE DISTURBED BY THESE WORDS COMING FROM MY MIND?!?
…BUT ON THE OTHER HAND: I AM TO THE PLACE NOW. THAT I CANNOT REALLY IMAGINE ANYTHING COMING FROM MY MIND THAT WOULD BE SHOCKING TO MY MIND. …HOW COULD THAT POSSIBLY BE, ANY WAY?!
I WONDER. WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE TO HAVE THE INTELLIGENCE OF A CELL FOR A DAM …WOULD IT BE EVEN BETTER THAN BEING “AWAKE”””
,MIGHT THEY IN FACT,,.. BE THE SAME. THING? !